Today was an overall good day. I showed up a little late for my communications class, and the teacher told me "I was lucky I didn't get locked out," the speech I tend to hear her give. My group wasn't even mad and didn't care for an explanation as to why I didn't make it to the 7:30 AM meeting they planned before class. Our group speech went well as well.. I'm really grateful for those guys. I hope my intuition isn't wrong, but I think all 7 of us became friends after wards. The miracle of group projects sometimes. It can really make friends out of the members.

I never realized it before, but St. Patrick's Day is really wonderful. I've been forgetting to wear green in the past few years, but this year I managed to remember. Only today did I notice other people wearing green. Whether it's a shirt, earrings, or even a sticker on a plaid shirt, I realized that it's wonderful such a national holiday could entice participation from people. I don't know the significance of today, but isn't it nice to see people who care enough wearing green? It's not even "Red for Haiti/AIDS/etc," and people are participating! It makes me quite proud of humanity.

Anyway, when I opened up my planner today and realized I had no homework due tomorrow, it made my day. But by the noon, I fell into a sort of self-pity for some reason. I was thinking about how I spend so much time at school. 5 courses that keep me 15 minutes from home from 8 AM until 5 PM Mondays to Wednesdays. I'd be a bit free-er on Tuesdays, but I took up math tutoring as a job. I started wallowing in misery for myself. I took all these classes because I needed them-- I want to transfer out by the end of my second year at community college, but I kind of failed to take some important classes y first year, so now I'm trying to fix it. Even if I get to transfer, I still have to make up a Zoology class. I kept thinking about how I keep having to take so many extra courses just to try and fix mistakes. I wanted it easier. I want to take the normal amount for a normal person. Now I realize everyone wants it easier. I probably wouldn't be happy even if that did happen. ^^;

Not to mention when math class ended and I was headed for physics lab, I thought about how nice the weather was and that I wouldn't be able to enjoy it. Here was a nice day and I spend it sitting inside class. From 8 AM to 5 PM, I spend it seated in a classroom. The scene changes according to the course, but it's still a classroom! Oh, how deprived I felt when I realized that!

All was good, though. The teacher cracked jokes that made me laugh. Even though he's scary, he's really a good guy. We got let out early, too. I felt really good after that, which made me ponder about how simple things always make me feel better. In the end, I just really like to laugh.

Lately, everyday, I like to come home and listen to rock. More specifically, Imai Tsubasa's Dance and Rock con.. I don't know why. Do I need music that's a little harder and more upbeat than regular pop? Hmm! I just.. feel at ease listening to EDGE, Do me Crazy, Axel, 2nd face.. While I doubt any of those songs could be considered "relaxing," I just feel better listening to them. At least, for now. I think it's the same way how every morning this week I've been eating cereal, despite how I dislike eating so much lately. I just want cereal.

Labels: emotion, holiday, school